fall 2009.,

It’s nice..,to go back to school, and when you open the door, you can smell something from the cafeteria, hear people in the office, see that someone had spilled coffee on the floor.,

yes, the school has started. again. meaning, the summer’s completely over * and the weather now agrees with me * and the new school year, 2009-2010, has just begun.

It brings excitement, joy, and also pressure, and of course homeworks and assignments :p but in a way, I look forward to drawn myself in school’s activity. Reading the history material, messing up my hair while doing the harmony homework, going to classes, and so on and so on it’s good to have busy schedule.

but, I believe that i’ll have to jump out of the bed now and start doing something :p

have a good weekend, everybody!

Growing

Each day, we all learn something new. well., almost every moment, whether we realize it or not.

I was on the bus today, and as it went through the town, my thoughts just flew to this topic. I’ve been living on this earth for 20 years, 4 months, and 15 days *almost 16*. And so far, I’ve learned a lot about life. I’m not saying that I know a lot more than people my age. Probably, I know less than I thought. But i’ve been through some things at least.

So far, I’ve learned  a little bit about life, people, and myself. I’m still learning of course, but I’m just taking a tiny break from all of this learning, and try to reflect my life. Not much to reflect though, but it does help me a lot. I could see the difference between me now, and me, 5 years ago. I wasn’t happy with my life back then., and was depressed. Now, I’ve reached the stage of balance *or at least I think so,. * for now. I know it’s difficult to have it  balanced like this until the day I die, because life is always.,full of surprises.,like when you’re opening a present. I’ve opened my present a little bit, and I’m happy with it so far. very happy.

I learned what losing is about. I lost several people in my life, including the 2 most important people ever. And I miss you dearly. I really want to talk with you, in person. or even just for a cup of tea.

I learned a lot about friendship,.what is it about, what it teaches you, the feeling to have great friends,.and to miss them. I really want to see you, dear friends of my life. to meet you guys in person, not through the technology.

I’ve learned what it’s about to miss people. no question. that also teaches me, that in life, people come and go. That’s actually, really difficult to learn.

..and..of course., I’ve learned a little bit about love.  It’s teaching me a lot.,moment by moment. I get to understand more and more and more about love,.and I’m happy that it goes deeper every moment. slowly.

and so many other things I can’t write one by one.

but,.all of that things, that have made me this way. I’m glad with the way I am now. Maybe i’ll change later, but at least, I’m here now,.in this stage of life. balanced. couldn’t be happier than now =)

I believe, so many things are still waiting for me. I’ll continue opening my box of present, learn more about life, growing, and become a wiser person. I’m afraid, of course, because I may not like the rest of the present, but hey who isn’t anyway? gotta be positive about life!

just few words before i go to sleep.,

again,.it’s been a while since the last time I wrote something here. It’s been a great summer with lots of fun and good times. =) and to remind all of you, it’s my first summer ever hehe.,

basically what i’ve been doing are just eating and sleeping and having fun.,*where are all the practicing hours going? i’m so out of shape!*  and also doing a bit of travelling around Iceland, which is very cool! i’ve gone to the west part of iceland, so it’s half circle =p all i need to do is go to the east sometime later yeaaayyy! Iceland is so beautiful!

and it was also great, travelling with friends, and *ehem* ‘a special friend’. *blushing* hehe.,it’s been a while. and,.at least from my side, it’s getting deeper. and I just realized, how is it, to feel love. to be in love. it feels like the first time.,*actually i don’t think it’s my first time though, but maybe the first time, serious one*.

i’d say,.love is beautiful. with all the happiness, with all the tears,.i’m amazed with how big the scale of feeling i feel these weeks. and, eventhough, it’s not always happy, *every love story has it sad part*, I’m thankful that i have love now. I’m grateful because i cry of love.,because i smile of love. what i’m feeling now, is so big, that my soul trembles. but it’s a great feeling

of course, i want this to last forever., or if i could say it.,live happily ever after. but no one can promise anything about the future. and we all still need to struggle with that fact. I’m happy enough to feel love now. i do think that now i’m seeing life from other point of view, and more mature in a way. life is precious, but love is more than that. love, makes life worth living. *i mean, love in general*.